Series : I Do This Because...
Title : Because You’re the Only One 2/3
Pairing : Hanchul, Sichul
Genre : Drama, angst
Rating : PG-13
Summary : Kim Heechul, a cocky princess, or so they said. He has a high position in Jung enterprises, and many people admired him because of his success. Lots of people confessed to him, but got rejected right away, in a cruel way. Many said he’s arrogant, but little did they know, Heechul has a deep secret. Every night, he visited a hospital where his boyfriend fell into a coma for two years. One day, his boyfriend’s doctor, Siwon, confessed to him, and said he will give Heechul a better life, a better love. Heechul rejected him at first, but... two years waiting... just how long will Heechul be able to wait?
Because You’re the Only One – Part 2
Heechul parked his car in front of the hospital, and took quick steps inside. He greeted the nurse in the reception desk, and strolled to Hankyung’s room. Slowly, he opened the door, and found Siwon inside, checking on Hankyung.
“Siwon sshi...” he called. Siwon turned around and threw him a smile. “Heechul sshi, finally you’re here. Busy day today?” Heechul chuckled. He approached Hankyung’s bed, and held his lover’s hand. “Hey... sorry I’m late.” He said. “How are you today?” No answer, and Heechul smiled bitterly. Of course... he hoped too much.
Siwon watched the older male painfully. For two years, since he became Hankyung’s doctor, he watched Heechul talked to the unconcious man, every day. Held his hand, whispered love words, begged for him to hurry awake... Siwon never saw someone could love that much.
Slowly, he fell for Heechul. For his eyes that filled with love, his strength and his patience. He fell for that fragile person, who looked strong outside, but cried when he was alone with Hankyung. He wanted to be the shoulder Heechul lean on, a chest Heechul cry on... and a person who filled his heart.
“Heechul sshi...” he called. Heechul looked at him, with his usual blank look. “Siwon sshi... can you... can you leave me here for a while?” He asked, and Siwon found himself unable to refuse. He nodded solemnly, and walked out of the room. But he didn’t go far away. He leaned his body on the door, and closed his eyes. He knew what would Heechul do. Every night, it was always the same.
When he heard the familiar sobs came out from the room, Siwon clenched his shirt. That was it, he couldn’t take it anymore.
He would do something, anything to stop Heechul’s cry and sadness.
“What if someday we break up, Hankyung ah?” Asked Heechul one day. He felt kinda tipsy, and Hankyung did too. The both of them were alone at Hankyung’s apartment that night, drinking soju and talked and kissed once and twice. Hankyung raised hie eyebrows in confusion.
“Huh...? What kind of question you’re asking...” he slurred, blinking his eyes a few times to looked at his lover clearly. “Weird... you don’t usually ask something like that...” he chuckled, and took one sip. Heechul looked at him blankly, and shrugged. “Guess the alcohol did something funny to me.”
He said it in a supposed to be normal tone, but the hint of anxiety in his voice caught Hankyung off guard, and the younger male almost cracked his neck when he turned it really quickly, to faced Heechul. “Chullie...?”
“It’s nothing. Just... I’m drunk already, okay?” Heechul looked away, nervously swayed his bottle in his hand. “You know I said lots of weird things when I’m drunk.” Hankyung put his bottle away, and used his hands to turned Heechul’s face, so the older male could look at him. Carefully, he kissed Heechul’s lips, softly.
“Are you... afraid?” He asked when they pulled away. Heechul’s mind was still in haze, the kiss totally made him surprised. “About our future?” Heechul shook his head, and avoided Hankyung’s eyes once again. “Answer me, Heechul...”
“I’m not afraid, okay? I’m just... I got this horrible dream last night, in which you turned away from me, and walked further and further... and I couldn’t run to you.” Heechul said, voice shaky. “Fuck, I’ve never been worried because of a mere dream... damn, what happened to me?” He sent an annoyed look to Hankyung. “It’s all your fault!”
Hankyung almost laughed because of his lover’s antic. It was cute, actually. For him to asked a very random question, just because a dream he got last night... oh, how Hankyung loved him more and more. He pulled Heechul into a tight hug, and kissed the top of his head.
“You’re cute, you know that?” Hankyung whipered. “And please, be cute just in front of me. I’m afraid lots of people will fall for you if they know this side of you.” Heechul poked his stomach harshly, and the Chinese male yelped. “Don’t call me cute, I don’t like it.” He snuggled closer to Hankyung.
“Heechul ah... I love you, and I will never fall out of love with you. I’m sure of it.” Hankyung said softly. “That dream is just a dream... forget it. We’re happy right now, and I think we will always be happy...” He ran his fingers on Heechul’s arm. The older male closed his eyes, felt somewhat comfortable with the action. “I know...” he murmurred. “I’m so silly... and it’s still because of you.”
Hankyung snorted. “Keep blaming me for everything, will you? I’m glad to be a blaming material for you.” He said sarcastically. Heechul grinned, eyes still closed. “You should feel honored, I don’t give that role to anyone, you know?” He murmurred, and purred in delight when Hankyung moved his fingers to Heechul’s neck. “Oh my god, I can sleep now...”
“Don’t,” Hankyung said and leaned closer, “don’t sleep just yet, at least not before this...” and he kissed Heechul’s lips slowly, almost desperately. Their once blurry mind was became more blurry now, but because of another reason. They could feel the taste of soju in each other’s mouth. Toxicating, delighting, and their kiss deepened, like they would never let go.
Slowly, Hankyung moved his hand, from Heechul’s neck, down to his arm, his hip, his back... and stopped when he touched the bottom of Heechul’s shirt. “Heechul ah...” he pulled away slightly, to asked his boyfriend. The older male looked at Hankyung’s eyes, with the look that Hankyung could interpret into a yes, and he kissed Heechul again, faster, but with the same passion.
They made love for the first time that night, all nervous and clumsy, just like how the first one should be. They just followed what their hearts told them to, their lips never let go for more than ten seconds, merely just to catch a breath. Their love was poured into every single action they made. Moans were like melody to their ears, and every thrusts just like a dance, and they didn’t want to stop, because they felt right.
Because they felt love.
Heechul looked up at the ceiling, tried to make his tears stop. Every night, when he came to the hospital and held Hankyung’s hand like this, memories just kept playing. The feeling, the sounds, and every single action... he could feel it, just like it was happening right now.
But it didn’t really happen, that was why he felt pain. That was why he cried, every night. He didn’t want to, but he did anyway.
Because no matter how strong he was, he still cried because of love.
And when he did, he didn’t feel so strong anymore.
Heechul sighed and closed the door, when he realized he already stayed at Hankyung’s room for 3 hours, and he need sleep. Badly. Or else he would skip work tomorrow, and made Yunho mad because of it.
He thought nobody, besides a few nurses, would still be there. His parents rarely came to the hospital, as they pointed Siwon to took charge of the hospital for a while.
So, he was kinda surprised when he saw Siwon, leisurely leaned his body on the wall across Hankyung’s room, with a friendly smile on his face. “Going home?” Heechul blinked, and nodded. Truth to be told, he wasn’t close to Siwon, or anybody else besides Yunho and Jungsu. He lost interest of people, as he was busy with other things.
“Why are you still here, Siwon sshi?” He asked politely. Up to this day, he never spoke to Siwon more than a mere hello, or questions about Hankyung’s progress. Not that he meant to be rude, he just didn’t know what to say to him.
“Waiting for you. Come on, I will send you home.” Siwon wriggled his car keys, and Heechul flinched slightly. He felt weird, and his stomach squirmed. “Thank you, but I have my own car...” Heechul said, and turned his body. Siwon, already expected that, quickly grabbed his wrist. Heechul tried to jerk it off, but Siwon was so much stronger than him.
“What are you-“
“I love you.”
Heechul stilled. It had been a long time since he last heard those words, and now he heard it from someone he didn’t expect. His heart thumped, as Siwon walked closer.
“Siwon sshi...” he squeaked, now felt slightly panic. “I’m sorry, but I can’t... I don’t love you back.” Siwon smiled. “I know that very well, Heechul sshi...”
“Because I love you so much, too much, and I don’t want you to cry anymore. You’ve been waiting for him for two years, Heechul sshi... but he never opened his eyes, even once. I... I know you’re deeply in love with him, Heechul sshi, but... in these two years, you never felt happy, didn’t you?” Siwon said, softly, gently, as his grip on Heechul loosened. “I want you to be happy, Heechul sshi. I love you so much, and I have a confidence to make you smile again...”
Heechul didn’t know what to say. Siwon was sincere, he knew it. Everything he said had a point, but Heechul found it very annoying. He jerked away, and glared at Siwon. “I have a right to do whatever I want. You don’t have to worry about me, Siwon sshi. I can handle my situation very well. I... I love Hankyung, and never once I lost hope of waiting. I’m honored, Siwon sshi, for you to be in love with me. But I’m sorry... I can’t.”
With that, he turned and left. This time, Siwon didn’t try anything to stop him. The doctor shouted instead,
“I won’t give up, Heechul sshi! Please, think about this!”
And Heechul surely thought about it, to the point he couldn’t close his eyes trough the night.
Jungsu glanced at his cousin, worried but didn’t dare to open up a conversation. The younger male was incredibly tired, and seemed to have lots of thoughts. A cup of black coffee in front of him barely touched, getting colder by any second.
"Heechul ah..." Jungsu called quietly. Heechul didn't move. He remained on his position, head leaned on the glass window of Jungsu's cafe. "What happened?" The younger male shook his head. Nothing, he mouthed. Jungsu sighed.
"You need to stop hiding things from me. I told you I will help you anytime, didn't I? And that includes being your listener too." He said and poked Heechul's arm. "Now, what happened?" Heechul groaned and buried his head into his palm. His cousin was really, really a pushover.
"Hankyung's doctor, Siwon sshi... he... he confessed to me." Heechul said. "Last night, when I was about to go home after visiting Hankyung..." Jungsu didn't show any reaction. He was just nodding, "it's about time he does it..." he said, and earned a surprise look from Heechul.
"You... knew? Jungsu nodded solemnly. “Did he tell you?” Jungsu shook his head, and sighed. “I always know it... everytime I accompanied you to visit Hankyung sshi. He always looked at you with these... these eyes, that clearly stated that he would give you anything you want, anything to make you happy. It’s kinda sweet, actually...” he looked at Heechul, “but you certainly are not in love with him. I kinda pity him, but... I just hope he’s not someone who would do anything to achieve his goal.”
“Because it will be bad for both you and him. And for Hankyung sshi also, by the time he wakes up.” Heechul groaned and dropped his head on the table. “Then what should I do??” Jungsu shrugged, and welcomed a few customers that just opened the cafe’s door. He signaled Jaejoong to handled them, before turned back to Heechul.
“Just make sure you won’t make a wrong decision, Heechul ah.” He said softly and pat Heechul’s shoulder. “I don’t want you to suffer more than this...”
Heechul felt like crying, but he vowed a few times not to cry anymore, not in front of people anyway.
The ride to the hospital was very short for Heechul. He wanted to see Hankyung, but he didn’t want to face Siwon just yet. There was something in that man, that Heechul sure could make him forget everything that he already decided. He shook his head, tried to get Siwon off his mind as he parked in the parking lot.
“Heechul sshi...” once he entered the hospital, he was greeted by Siwon with a wide smile. He cursed in his heart when Siwon strolled to him, the smile was still on his face. “You’re early today. Already finish your work?” Heechul nodded, tried not to met with Siwon’s eyes.
“Glad to hear it then... I want to take you somewhere... is that okay?” Heechul looked at him wide eyed, clearly didn’t expect it. “What?!”
“A date... I want to take you somewhere...” Siwon said again. Heechul looked down. “I’m sorry, Siwon sshi... but I already told you, I...” Siwon cut him off.
“I know. But please, give me a chance. One date, just this one. Then you can decide whether you still allow me to love you or not. I will give up if your answer is still no after the date.” Heechul gulped, and slowly lift his head. “Please...?”
Heechul didn’t knw what to do. Once he saw the sincere look Siwon gave to him, he didn’t know what to say. Maybe it won’t be that bad, to give him a chance... he thought. He slowly nodded, and Siwon broke into the widest smile he ever seen. He looked so happy, so thankful... and it made Heechul wondered. He was kinda surprised he could make someone to be that happy again, to made someone smile again... the last time he saw that happy look, was when he and Hankyung chatted trough webcam. The look Hankyung put everytime Heechul said that he missed him.
Hankyung, he thought bitterly. He just accepted a date from someone other than Hankyung. He felt a pang of guilt in his heart suddenly. Was he... cheating?
“Then, I will meet you at the park on Sunday... is that alright, Heechul sshi?” Heechul jumped in surprise at Siwon’s question. He nodded hesitantly, and Siwon broke into a wide smile again. “Okay then... I have a patient to check on. So... see you on Sunday, then?”
“See you on Sunday...” Heechul said, just when Siwon turned around and ran to a room. Heechul took a deep breath, and turned to leave the hospital. He couldn’t look at Hankyung’s face tonight, not when he felt like this.
Not when Heechul was at the stake of betraying him.
Taemin knocked on Heechul’s door. “Hyung...?” he called. The room was dark, the only light there was coming from Heechul’s laptop. His brother was in front of it, typed like a maniac. He didn’t even look at Taemin when he replied the call. “Yeah?”
“What are you doing, typing in the dark like this? You will damage your eyes.” Taemin scolded lightly as he flicked the light on. “You’re not going to the hospital tonight?” He walked closer to Heechul, who still didn’t look at him. The older boy shook his head, and Taemin raised an eyebrow.
Heechul stopped typing. “I don’t know... I just...” Heechul turned to look at his brother. “Taemin, what do you think about Siwon sshi?” Taemin raised his eyebrow even higher. Why did his brother suddenly ask him about the handsome doctor?
“He’s good, I think. Why? Did he do something to you?” Taemin asked as he sat on his brother’s bed. “Did he finally confess to you?” Heechul looked dead-panned. “Did everyone know about his feeling to me??” He said, a little bit annoyed. He was not a slow person. He certainly knew when someone took an interest on him. But the fact that Siwon had a feeling for him for so long already without him knowing, and everybody knew about it, somewhat made him kinda confused and annoyed.
“Well, hyung... he’s kinda obvious. So, he confessed to you?” Taemin asked curiously. Heechul groaned. His brother would not let this topic off, he was sure of it. “Yes, he did. Last night, and I will have a date with him this Sunday. Now, don’t speak about this any further.”
Taemin frowned. “But hyung... isn’t it kinda wrong?”
Heechul raised a hand. “I said, don’t speak about this any further, Taemin.” He knew it was wrong, dammit. Taemin didn’t need to rub it on him again. He was feeling guilty already. “This topic gave me a headache.”
“Okay, hyung... but please, don’t do something that you will regret. Don’t hurt anyone... or better, don’t hurt yourself. I... I want my cheerful brother back.” Taemin pecked his brother’s cheek. “I don’t want you to be sad anymore.” Before Heechul could say anything, his brother left the room already. He turned back to his laptop, stared at it for a while and decided he couldn’t continue what he was doing. Too tired, and his brain was not working well that night.
“I hate myself when I become like this...” he murmurred. He looked his desk side, where he put a picture of him and Hankyung, framed with a red photo frame, a present from Hankyung. He remembered the words Hankyung wrote on the back of the picture. ‘I will love you forever –Hankyung-‘. Sweet, cliche, but Heechul treasured those words.
He looked at the picture. He and Hankyung were smiling, the background was Hankyung’s apartment. They were having a small birthday party that day, Hankyung’s birthday. Also a celebration because Hankyung got a big role on his new drama. They looked so happy, very happy and Heechul really wanted to cry when he looked at the picture.
“I miss you so much...” he whispered. “So much that it hurts... please, come back soon... I need you. I don’t want to give up on you... I’m weak, Hankyung...” he wiped the tears that fell down on his cheek. “I’m weak, I need you to support me... to support our love.”
Taemin, still outside the room, leaned heavily on the door. He could hear his brother’s words, and sighed. He hated the fact he couldn’t do anything for his brother who did so much to him. He could just pray, for his brother’s happiness to come soon.
Siwon was checking Hankyung for the last time that night, if there would be any reaction. Although his mind was still on the beautiful man that accepted his invitation a few hours ago, his concentration was still in its best.
And that concentration made him aware of the movement of Hankyung’s fingers. He was shocked, and became more shocked when his patient groaned quietly.
I'm sorry for the late update >__< being held up by lots of things, and trying to cope with second grade is not as easy as I thought...=,=
enjoy this new chapte then!^^